Moods....

Well it's been a long time, focusing on career moves and finishing one goal and starting new beginnings. Smh, the world has taken a different shape now, pandemic, people all over the world speaking and expressing their minds. The unbalance in our society made worldwide headlines, racism, injustice it's amazing human kind still exist.  The only species on earth that is getting along are the animals, it's really something. The younger part of the society want change, they don't want to tolerate what the previous generations did, the excuses and roadblocks by the generations before us. I am interested in seeing how long the older generations keeps this up, if society keeps repeating the same mistakes. It will eventually keep revolving and doing the same thing over however I don't believe that the generation that's before us would entertain that I can see they want to write their own story. The digital age is increasing and those that don't get on board will get left behind, that's just facts that's inevitable that the society evolves will grow and if the rest of the world's growing around us we have to grow too we can no longer accept things the way they are because they don't have a face value anymore. The Earth she lets us know that I don't receive what you're doing as well or you're allowed to exist here but You Don't own me I help you live you don't help me live that is what's really scary mankind thinks it helps us exist. However Earth is helping man exist Earth provides a home for mankind the longer there is a battle among men over what is right and what is wrong Earth will continue to evolve until it's fulfilled its purpose and the universe of creation will have another stage which we probably won't be a part of maybe we will I don't know. I do know that the way the society looks and looks and balance it is in balanced we're greed and power takes toll on human beings and other living beings on the Earth one thing we all have to remember everything has an end it can process but it will end well who's going to be happy when it is we don't know but it'll end. So in the meantime we really shouldn't dwell on how the race ends but dwell on what's in front of us or how you're running the race or why you even running the race at all life will take us through different changes and stages one stage that I'm in life is seeking peace whenever I can find it I sometimes have peace just sitting still and imagining me and not the ocean and watching the water show me rebirth over and over. You know that part where the waves go out and they come back in and they take the sand and renew it they take some of it with it and bring some back. Many people don't watch the ocean they just go there for whatever else it offers but myself I seek peace in it I have yet to seek peace in going to looking at the mountains and trees only because they don't do anything the mountains just stay there I appreciate mountains more when I see the sunrise was sunsets. I appreciate mountains with snow on them I love the winter snow I can stand in the snow on the mountain and here absolutely nothing but gentle wind watch snow blow every now and then you see an animal but I can appreciate that to the fullest because I feel like even though the mountain stays still it brings life it grows it allows the snow to exist on it and when it melts if it doesn't know it still brings life the water carries the life somewhere else the weather is different in the mountains so it it changes life grows it discontinues and it grows so I can appreciate it from some point of view but my favorite. My favorite is the ocean I love watching the water wash away and bring in you and the birds they fly over the ocean and peace and harmony when they fly over the ocean there's no cars and buses and traffic and people it's just the water them and the sky so I can imagine that Joy they have their creatures are blessed to travel and don't have to take a test to go or experience squash quarters and all that other junk involved with traveling. So this is one of the post of moods and I like that cuz I can just randomly give it randomly put them there you know this is one of those moods. This one took a while to post I think I started typing this in September and I let it sit I didn't mess with it so I'm going to finish it because I still have that mood it's still there, it's still there. 

Short thoughts

Starting a new year with a new set of thoughts that is difficult to do. Life gets challenging and things become complicated when you are fighting against time. I was just thankful just to be alive another day and have those that love me surrounding me. Well one thing I have been taught is that people are just going to be people there's no going around anything or shortcuts in life although people think there is or isn't you're going to have to eventually work hard and put your focus where it belongs prioritize what you need in life and sometimes I means you have to let go of people and things that you were involved or dealt with before.

I think that is the hardest part for people, prioritizing and changing the path that we traveled before when you look around and it seemed like things got harder or more complicated. There is when the light comes on and you realize that you were the cause of it because you didn't make changes or move forward in life.

So as the year comes to an end and life tries to resume to some regular lifestyle and people get back on track, you now see things different, you see life as precious as it can be. After the pandemic, life is no longer taken for granted. Really it shouldn't have been taken for granted in the first place.

Revive it

Revive the blog..... Now or never...........

Okay well I haven't had a chance to get on this blog and fulfill its purpose, and I am. It's 8:00 a.m. on Wednesday August 3rd and I am sitting in the kitchen drinking a cup of tea and thinking about the post that I want to put on this particular site I have several in mind but I'm going to go spontaneous on this one. I recently discovered the power of social media and I have several platforms I'm constantly reviewing and researching information about people ,places and things and I must say the one that's getting targeted the most, I must say I am impressed with,  is tick tock because they seem to open up the platform. There are many that can use this platform whether it's for educational purposes, speech ,everyday living, encouragement all sorts of things available on this one platform. It amazes me how it's always under fire but it reaches a lot of people like all over the world. That's what impresses me about tik tok platforms and I'm not quite ready to post on tiktok yet because I'm working on a few other projects but I see it being fundamental. of course right now everything's about a lot of political issues and diverse issues I don't really want to cover too much of that unless I have an experience. Right now , I'm going to share, but I really want to go more to the center and I would like to cover things of more positivity I'm not saying that those issues aren't important and can't be positive. We see so much of it on the media stream that it's just getting to be choking so for me I want to share positive things that I come across. I am going to do that as well as my business blog I'll be working more with consumer and business owners talking about life after the pandemic. So this isn't going to be my way of giving back to the natural journey that I'm on in the world I'll be giving back and sharing with those in out there in the internet World using a data platform Google blogger. So that being said I'm going to finish my tea and go rest for a little bit and then get my fingers to type in more like texting for those who blog you know that it's so much more easier now you can do a lot more automated things you could be doing two things at one time I'm that person so I hope everyone have a good day it's the middle of the week so we ain't got too far to go to get to the weekend I'll chat with you guys later.

That time of year again..........

Well it's that time of year again, with all the chaos people struggle to find even a little bit of happiness. I went through the motions and then it was over, holiday events are like quick fixes where everyone smiles until their face hurts and then pray they don't snap on the next person who gets on their nerves. I call it a distraction, even though there are pleasant moments, like watching the expressions of little kids excited about holiday events.  I am guilty of loving holiday decor, funny to see people put them up too. I don't care for holiday madness, the rudeness, fighting in stores for items that really aren't on sale.  All year people are hungry and need clothing and housing, what's sad is no one cares until the holidays when b they can be seen giving. I don't know what's worse purple ignoring the poor until the holiday or giving crumbs to write it off at tax time.  Anyways, I think the holidays isolate people and don't really make everyone feel great. I guess it depends on how you look at it, for me I wish it did have something for everyone in it but it doesn't.  I am staying focused on my business plan, making every effort not to get caught up in the hoopla. Best wishes to those who do that you survive the season.

Relax and have that glass of wine..

Well I tried to stay on top of this, back in the saddle though, work load shifted now I will have time. This time I am relaxing doing a little reflecting on time I give to myself, thinking about those that have impacted my life this past year or two. I'm not going to lie it's be rough, I feel now as if I shorted myself out of some joy. I've been on a establish my self worth path, I have a very wonderful friend to thank for that insight. Funny, you can go through life thinking everything is great and it's not, wore out from doing for others, getting taken advantage of, exhausting it is, and now I see what is going, or I let it slip away. Well now I am at the beginning stage, taking it one day at a time, dealing with my regrets, trying to get past so much loss. I will do it but I will pay a bit hefty price. I lift my glass to those who got it together, very who knows their worth and are living life to the fullest.

Do you add to or take away from the environment your in?

Have you ever had a moment to sit and think about life, and wonder do you add to your environment in a positive way or do you take away the potential of nurturing your life span? Some of us don't even take a moment to enjoy nature let alone be aware that we shorten our life span with what we put in it, no I'm not talking about eating and exercise. I am referring to the mental and physical of our daily activities, fact is most believe that the human nature loves negativity and turmoil. We busy our lives with information on a now get it basis, no one checks if the source is valid, we have no regards to other people space, overcrowding has become the new norm. Time is no longer considered,we operate on a twenty-four hour time schedule, nothing closes, everything is available all the time.
No one slows down, you don't even smell the roses, are we dehumanizing or are we reprogramming our minds.
I recently did a self analysis, still working on it, I found out a a lot about myself some good and some bad, I knew I wanted to change my attitude towards life. I didn't just want to accept life is bad and everyone in it is wanting negative results for each other.

So that means I had to re-focus and change my thought process, one good thing that comes in handy is surrounding yourself with positive energy. Although its hard to find, it exist I had to start looking at the good in situations even if it hurt.

Then I started house cleaning, things that had no value to my progressing in life I let go. I also had to make up my mind that things I wanted for myself in life, decide to go and get them.  Begin a spiritual journey ,so I could meditate in thought. I also made the decision to say no more and not try to please everyone. 

Self Worth

When someone ask you do you know your worth? How do you answer? Many of us have never asked ourselves the question, we just hesitate and don't give it a thought. Self worth is effected as we grow older, people's opinions and attitudes toward us start determining how we see ourselves. We start to measure what we can do and who we will be by the measuring stick of society, that is not the way we should see ourselves.
I know for me I felt like the odds were always against me, being the oldest and experiencing new things first there was no one in front for me to measure by. All my life, I could remember the negative audience always cutting it short, telling me it can't happen, its impossible, etc. For me that was like putting gasoline to the fire, I would attempt and go hard at it because I was determined that I could achieve the impossible or improve at it in some sort of way. I had developed self love(when no one can love you like you) I wasn't arrogant but I wasn't the type to just accept other people's outcome for me. You have to trust your feelings about yourself so I quickly learned I had to make choices for me. I learned how to self analyze, which wasn't hard because I am a analytical person anyways, but learning how to constantly self analyze was hard and I didn't always do it. Building your self worth, you have to become your own cheering squad, remind yourself you matter, your number one. Prove to yourself by taking responsibility, owning up to the fact that you are in control of your attitude, your reactions, and your worth. You have to forgive yourself, responsibility also requires that you relinquish the need to use criticizing as a source of coping, criticizing alleviates the need to look at yourself and to change your own behavior. Put your energy into what you need to do to change your situation, one main suggestion is STOP TRYING TO PLEASE PEOPLE. I changed my thought process and started to take difficult scenarios and change them into opportunities, learning to value myself a lot more. Reaching that level wasn't easy, for some time I always put myself last, after awhile though you start to realize your self worth.